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Mon 4 Apr 13

Someone once told me, "as adults, we are kidding ourselves if we said the thoughts will never stray... By allowing role play, it helps satisfy certain kind of desire without really acting on it...
And the best thing is it's still done between she and me... Best of both worlds..."

(well.. its actually kinda a bit sex-related.. but.. u should know what i mean.."

actually.. now that i think about it..
i regret to say.. that i kind of disagree with the statements..

dont know why.. but.. for me..
if u call it true love..
you dont have to distract urself with stuff and new ways so that ur love to ur partner wont stray..

for me.. if u really feel the true love that u have with ur partner..
u dont ever need to do all of the above so that ur love to ur partner will "sort of" last..

if u really feel and experience the "true love"..
u wont even have to or need to or even want to cheat.. or fantasize about other people.. or do harmless flirtings.. because the thought of being with ur partner is the happiest moment u could ever feel..

this quote (see the following quote) is really common and popular in this world.. people use it as love quotes all the time.. it sounds a little bit like this (im sure uve heard or read it somewhere before):
"if u're with someone u truly love.. u dont ever want to go to sleep because reality is so much better than dreams.."

i wont say that because i feel this way.. that makes me the holiest love-aholic.. i know ive done things wrong towards my husband before.. and i wont say that i dont do it anymore or that i wont do it again..

but.. sometimes.. i kinda agree with the quote..

for me.. when im with my husband.. that is really the happiest moments in my life.. i dont think any dreams about anythin will make me feel happier..

when my husband looks at me with so much love in his eyes.. the eyes that says that im the one and only and that im everythin he ever wanted..
when he smiles at me and kisses me..
when he strokes my hair and does all this impressions of me that he "claims" are always what i do in certain situations..

i feel really happy and content..

our signature wedding song was "When God Made You (by New Song)..
i really feels that this song is about me..

i'm a very spoiled girl.. i always wanna get what i want.. i always feel im right all the time.. and im extremely selfish..

but my husband.. he always knows how to make me happy..
(granted.. sometimes he pisses me off with all the things i wish he'd do but he didnt..)

but.. generally speaking..
when i feel sad and down.. he always in the end finds a way to make me smile or laugh..
when im being selfish.. he'd know the right moments to let me win.. and the right moment to scold (ok.. its really more of a "say" than a "scold"..) me so that i'd stop being like that (for my own good)..

he might not be everythin i always wanted (well actually.. he's so so so close..)
but he really is everything i ever needed..
and i really thank God that i met him..

well.. i'm probably naive.. and i dont wanna be hypocritical here and say i feel the "True Love"..
i still have got so much to learn..
learn to love him as he is.. (even tho there really are some habits / ways of thinking of his that irks me!! grr!! haha)

and also.. this is probably a bit due to some movie-induced kind of influence..
but i really think that.. if u feel and experience the true love..
the feelings will never go stray..

even yet.. u cant even imagine urself not feeling in love with ur partner for even 1 second..

but yaahh.. tats probably naive.. hahaha

xoxo S. E.